As a nurse working in an ICU with seriously ill patients, sometimes it's nice to not be there and be the one who's taken care of instead.

I've been sick these past few days. I was feeling fine, then I woke up Wednesday morning with a sore throat and nasal congestion. It went downhill from there. Apparently I'm not the only one at work who's sick right now. Something is going on.

Anyways, so we had some family from Oahu that is visiting this week, so my mom wanted me to go over there to see them. I haven't seen them since I was maybe 3 or 4 years old. I told her I wasn't feeling good. She said come over anyways. Then dad gets on the phone. "The surround sound isn't working. Can you fix it?" I tell him I'm not feeling good, and that I don't know if I'm coming over. "Just come over for 5 minutes and fix it."

Then I start throwing a pity party for myself. And I think I took it out on husband.
No one cares if I'm feeling good! I'm always the one having to take care of others, but no one ever takes care of me!

I know I was being overly-sensitive at the time because he does take excellent care of me, making sure I get the food I'm wanting and getting enough rest. I was just tired, frustrated...over it.

As nurses, we spend most of our time taking care of others, meeting the needs of others...investing all of our time and emotions in the care of others, that we don't really take that time out for ourselves. It took me getting sick myself to get that time.

Thank goodness for husband however. He was going to host a bday party on Sunday at our house for his grandfather. I was supposed to clean for that. He cancelled. He has gone into town every day after work to get my favorite foods...Thai, Chinese, and tonight will be Pho.

I'm definitely appreciative of him. I know I take him for granted sometimes, and don't show my appreciation. It's just one of the many things I need to work on. I'll get there. ;)

Saw this at Green Wedding Shoes and I just HAD to share. One of the most awesome, creative weddings I've ever seen. If I could do it all over again...well I would have to steal some ideas. ;)

Do you ever want to review the list of people in your life and remove the ones that don't need to be there, either because they don't treat your right or just the fact that their personal drama is driving you crazy? Because I'm currently doing that!

I have way to many good things in my life going on right now where I don't need to add other people's melodrama into the mix of things. Seriously, they complain and feel sorry for themselves...when in fact they are the ones doing it to themselves! So frustrating.

But that's all done now because you are officially out!

I think I'm just tired. Work has been frustrating. A co-worker and I were saying that we had invisible cloaks on yesterday because it felt like no one wanted to acknowledge us or even ask our opinion on anything.

Um, hello! WE know the patient WAY better than you do. WE are trying to help YOU out.

And then you have the times when you WISH you had an invisibility cloak on...as in when you're trying to get something done or go on a break and you have the annoying intern asking you to do stupid things. Really though?

As much as I'm trying to stay positive at work...it's really tough. ESPECIALLY when you have a co-worker tell you that you need to be perkier. WTF? Like I told her, I'm the effin perkiest person on the damn unit! Thank you very much.

The only things keeping me sane right now are my incredible hubby, my wonderful family, my amazing friends, a glass of wine or a margarita ;)...and Zumba/ cardio kick mornings. I'm sooo glad I'm heading back to the gyms and doing fun classes on off days. It's like a breath of fresh air.

I have 4 days off from work starting today. Looking forward to date night with another friend couple of ours, Santa Cruz tomorrow for boardwalk fun, and the Wharf to Wharf run on Sunday. This is just what I need.

Work has been insane these past few weeks...maybe even months. Yesterday was probably one of the nicest, fun days we've had in a really long time. Yes, it was a Sunday. Before we could at least look forward to the weekends being a little more laid back...but that wasn't the case during the last few weeks.

It was just...fun. The patients are pretty much the same (sick...same players). We do have a new team of docs coming in who are really nice and good. The people you work with definitely make a huge difference. And the fact that we all work really well together, help each other out...it makes ALL the difference.

Add in that we were all going craaaazy pants yesterday...and you get a really good day, full of free chocolate, watching a certain roasting on youtube, and some crazy ladies doing planks on the floor.

Those days are nice...like a breath of fresh air. Because for a while there I was getting burned out and bitter. But now I feel like I can do this again for the next 20+ years! ha. Maybe...

I got a new camera yesterday, thanks to the hubby! It's a Canon PowerShot SX230 HS. It's got some good nerdy, technical features, but slightly larger than a compact point-and-shoot. I absolutely love it. I wanted to play, so I took this pic of the fabulous peonies I got a few days ago.

Then hubby and I decided to have a photo shoot in the bathroom. I absolutely adore him and am extremely blessed to have such a wonderful man in my life.

I started going back to church last week. I must say, it's been an incredible thing being back. It's opening my eyes to changes I need to make, physically, emotionally, and spiritually. It's opened my eyes to just how blessed and how good I have it. And much more appreciative.